I have a problem, damn it, I overthink about everything, well not everything, just about him, and I that fucking pain that I feel, I feel it everyday it's like if I were an empty cup. I've become numb to the outside, but inside I'm crying, it's painful it really is. I don't know if it is love anymore, maybe I'm obsesed, It could be, someone told me already that this isn't love, is something else... I asked what, but he didn't say, he didn't wanted to.
Am I sick? Am I okeay? What is wrong with me? I would like to achieve my dreams, but I feel like they are really far, everything I want just goes away; why? Am I that self-destructive?
Why do I feel this pain coming out from my chest?
I want to cry but I hold back my tears, acting every day, I deserve an oscar, can't let myself fall because if I did wouldn't be a way out.